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BY
Alexandra Leigh Meyson
Preface

I couldn’t figure out why the pen was shaking. My mind was at ease, miraculously, considering the situation. Yet my body seemed determined to prove this tranquility false— an aching head; a trembling hand, and, as I re-read the words on the stained paper, silent tears plunging from my eyes.

Brushing the wetness away with my sleeve, I attempted to block out my actions to no avail. I could almost hear the minutes slipping away; the clock hands winding with relentless force toward the death my mind failed to imagine.

How strange it was to feel the need to agonize over time, or the world, for that matter. This outside force, so alien to me the previous months, was now the point of focus in the haze of ease— along with my demise of course.

My left hand gave a wild jerk as I signed my name at the bottom of the paper. A tear fell directly over it and as I took in the many drops covering the page, I felt it was symbolic, the last more than others.

As I sealed away my entire existence, I drew regret from my choices and the lie I was living at this moment. The truth suddenly burst into my mind, leaving me staggered as I struggled to dig out some token of an alternative.

There was none. Only the awful reality threatening to crush my unstable form. The reason for my being could no longer simply rush me to the peacefulness of sleep; I would have to face this with a fully awake mind. The tears flowed freely and I did nothing to stop them as I fell to the floor, clutching the envelope in my hands. I let the truth fill my heart, mind and soul— mind aware of what I was about to face— and let the waves of despair crash over me.


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